I sit here after everything has finished.

The week, the love, the life, it is all done and gone.

And I still have you, but I realize that I don’t need you to make me happy.

And I sit here alone, not waiting for you to give me a call.

I sit here, content with myself, with my decisions

Awaiting the next phase of this, but not scared to be disappointed if it means that it doesn’t involve you.

I don’t care where we go, I don’t care what we do,

Right now I just want to kiss you, and be with you

But I know I can be with myself too

I don’t need you, but I love you.

And I feel at peace for once knowing that we will go where will we go.

And that will be that.

Let us go then into fields of flowers and dead grass

Let us go then to discover new things about ourselves and each other

Hand in hand, side by side, let us go.

wow have not been on this thing for a while. boy all the places i have been since then. it seems like the last month has escaped me, i cannot remember any time of sitting around and writing or even thinking much less being alone. i think i might have gotten myself into another relationship. goody. i think. but normally my timing is impecable and the night we hook up is the day before i leave for christmas break. woot woot. but yeah, we explored the math library at three in the morning...and the rest is history. so yeah, am now in california running around in a bathing suit because it is so warm. took the train home the entire 22 hours, and although it was long, it actually wasn't that bad even though i don't plan on doing it again any time soon...i don't know how i am getting back to oregon then. maybe i will walk....it might take less time than the train.

okay rather fried. goodnight.